I was feeling better when I woke up. Ate only bananas and crackers and went out for a walk. The weather was really nice, hot but not too hot, and there was a nice breeze when I went down to the water. The sky was super clear and I wanted to capture that crisp blue sky in some way and I was very surprised to find a butterfly cutting through all the traffic so I incorporated some butterflies.

I wasn’t really sure what I was hearing today, but I think it was something along the lines of giving myself permission to listen to what I want and to hear that what I want is possible, that having a creative life (or any life) has to look a certain way or mean a certain thing. I couldn’t put a word on it that I wanted to include. Maybe freedom or flying away, but also maybe just being content with what is and striving for what may come to be.

From a process perspective, I have this issue with watercolor as well, I am not patient enough to let the layers dry. Learned the hard way with some of the butterflies that gouache acts like both watercolor and acrylic. Sometimes it is super opaque and layers on matte, and sometimes its wet and picks up wet paint underneath.